Fairytales and all that garb

Alright! Enough of this fairytale horseshit!

Life is about a bunch of give and take. It’s about a little love and hate.

With no up, there’s no down. With no sideways, there’d be no straight.

If I could tell you all just one thing- it would be- you’ll be ok- even if you’re not right now.

However, that doesn’t mean it doesn’t suck, when it sucks. That doesn’t mean it’s not bad, when it’s bad, it’s bad. That doesn’t mean I’ll sugar coat it for you or make you think for even a second that the reality of it is any different than what you fear the most.

With that being said- I want to congratulate all of you- you’ve made it this far and you’re not dead yet! Go! Quickly! Get off the computer! Stop reading blogs and go make love to your lover! Go play with your children! Go see your mother! Go! Go! Go!

Enough

I used to worry whether I was good enough.

Good enough for school boards and exams. Good enough for competitions and sports. Good enough for lovers and friends. Good enough for societies wacky standards. Good enough for my parents, not always so well spoken concern for my best interest or even their own. Good enough for college and life lessons.

Good enough for no good reason.

I am me – perfectly and ridiculously made. Clumsy and overweight, free thinking and non-conforming, happy, careless and free.

There are things that are subject to change. Intelligence isn’t something you just have, it’s something you continually strive to nurture and so the same for good health or anything else.

I’m not going to waste time in life wondering if I’m good enough for whatever reason another day in my life – I’m just going to do good, wholesome, loving, hard working things, to the best of my ability, that I know I’m capable of instead and that alone is just enough.

Faith

I don’t have much time today to explain but despite my own inner conflict and doubts about religion, I’ve had something new happen. I’m on the outside of the box, standing unwavering for the first time.

There’s people who have entered my life with doubt in their hearts, with fear, judgment and pain. I reassure them lately through the words I speak that they are not alone and that life is indeed good but it’s as if the words I speak are not my own. They are given to me with effortless timing, as if by divine intervention. If I could twist my eyes to raise an eyebrow at my lips I would because it’s shocking me just the same.

It’s as if I’ve healed in the middle of my travels through despair around me. It happened when I let go and it was the least of my concern. It must have happened when I wasn’t looking or maybe when I had my eyes shut and was leaning towards the sun, it silently grew. Or maybe when I humbled myself enough to only have room for gratitude and nothing else because without hope, I’m without appreciation as well.

It’s a simple definition – not excluding yourself.

Faith.

To love unconditionally, forgive irrelevantly, give repetitively, let go unexpectedly, appreciate everything, hate nothing and live irrevocably.

Anyway

People are unreasonable, illogical, self-centered
… love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives
… do good anyway.

If you are successful, you win false friends and true enemies
… be successful anyway.

The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow
… do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness will make you vulnerable
… be honest anyway.

People love underdogs but follow only top dogs
… follow some underdog anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight
… build anyway.

People really need help, but may attack you if you try to help them
… help people anyway.

Give the world the best you have, you may get kicked in the teeth
… but give the world the best you have … ANYWAY.

Mother Teresa’s Anyway Poem

There’s no word for it

I can imagine that there’s no words for it.

It’s right at the tip of my tongue.

How do you find a way to describe that the serenity you search for isn’t here? It simply doesn’t exist?

 

Hiding My Heart Away

Do you know that sting that comes in the back of your throat?

The one that raises tears, coating a single, silent note

The kind that comes creeping in the deep of night

when you stand alone in the dark, looking left and right

The stars cover the sky

as you attempt, as you try

to gather the peices of yourself blowing in the wind

scattered leaves, tumbling, falling again and again

memories invading your every thought

pumping the blood through your veins, rapid and hot

it’s your only fuel to survive

it keeps you alive

a place long ago

that you once called home

Sacrifice

Sacrifice is a funny word. Really, if you think about it, it applies to most people and most situations. Not everyone sacrifices the same thing.

You sacrifice your time for work. You forget that’s someone’s something who’s missing out on someone’s everything.

You sacrifice your health for pleasure. You forget you’re not invincible.

You sacrifice your money for necessity. You forget how to save.

You sacrifice your dignity for respect. You forget how to speak.

You sacrifice your relationships for depression. You forget you’re not the only one it’s effecting.

You sacrifice your voice for approval. You forget what you stand for and who you are.

You sacrifice your own genuine happiness for commercialized contentment. You forget the simple things.

You sacrifice anything for love, if it’s unconditional, if it’s true. You forget about yourself.

You sacrifice your pleasures for God. You forget about forgiveness.

You sacrifice your comfort for good looks. You forget you’re human.

You sacrifice your food, shelter and life for your children. You forget you’re still a person with needs.

You sacrifice your weakness and replace it with strength. You forget you’re not so strong and it’s ok to humble yourself.

You sacrifice your life for war and your country in vain. You forget you have a choice to walk away from the fight.

You sacrifice your sleep for the alarm. You forget what it’s like to rest.

You sacrifice your precious time for planning. You forget to turn off your cellphone and read a book.

There must be a balance somewhere out there. Maybe that’s what heaven is for. Kudos to you who think you’ve merely figured it out but news flash, you’d be lying.

 

Optimism

Sometimes your worst is your best in disguise. It’s what you choose to fuel it towards your very own destination.

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I had to post this. I fell asleep and it cracked me up!